Reddit case: When I had psychosis I hallucinated nuns and priests and heard voices telling me “God isn’t real”

Question: Despite not having a religious upbringing, I struggle a lot with behavior that is biblically “immoral”. When I had psychosis I hallucinated nuns and priests and heard voices telling me “God isn’t real”. I cannot identify any (current) life events that have led to my experiences. More in comments…

I got diagnosed with depression with psychosis when I was hospitalized for treatment. So I guess I have it but I’m just not having any current psychotic symptoms and haven’t for a while.

And it was stress induced, my parents wouldn’t get me treatment for depression that I started displaying symptoms of in 6th grade. I got hospitalized for treatment the beginning of my senior year in high school.

Before I had my psychotic break I identified as agnostic because I didn’t feel comfortable completely writing off the belief in any God. My psychotic break was very religiously oriented which just made things more confusing for me.

I feel some comfort if I just identify as spiritual. I couldn’t even tell you the difference between most religions because they’ve never been emphasized in my life and calling myself Christian or some other variation makes me feel deep discomfort.

Despite liking clothing that shows off my body and emphasizes my shape I still feel discomfort and paranoia that I’m doing something “wrong”. Casual sex feels “wrong” and “dirty”. I don’t understand why these are so deeply rooted in me when I’ve never even read the Bible.

On a lighter note, a lot of my Halloween costumes over the years have been some flavor of religious garb. Angel, devil, nun etc. I was thinking about doing an extensive angel costume this year honestly.

Astrological perspective.

Moon-Pisces conjunction and Moon-Jupiter aspect – spirituality in general and beliefs are big part of your personality. But Moon-Pisces conjunction is also in Aquarius and Jupiter is in 11 House=Aquarius energy as well. So traditional way of expressing spirituality via religion doesn’t fit into your personality.

At the same time, your South Node is Capricorn, so from past lives experience traditional stuff is very familiar to you with some twist because Capricorn ruler Saturn is in the 11 House. Maybe you had some experience of rebelling against traditional way of doing things.

So it’s a lot of contradiction between traditions (Capricorn) and revolution (Aquarius) that probably resulted in attempt to escape from big tension in delusions (Pisces) related to religion (Sagittarius and Pisces). Lilith in the 8th didn’t help either because it added some additional craziness to Aquarius and also “activated” some Scorpio energy.

Provocative clothing most likely related to Venus/Lilith in the 8th House (Scorpio, sexuality) and Aquarius (Venus-Uranus conjunction) – you dress like that to shock and show your unique feminine personality. And, of course, casual sex feels dirty because of Pisces, Sag and Uranus energies influencing your core and self-identity, they all are romantic signs actually.

And your desire to make an angel costume for the Halloween is the the same mixture of Pisces and Aquarius influencing your Moon in the 7th House: being in public pushes for desire to shock everyone (Aquarius) by being and angel (Pisces). And when can you do this? During Halloween, of course, because everyone else doing something opposite.

Reddit case: difficult to process and express emotions

Question: Why do I struggle to feel and express emotions? I have a hard time processing my feelings and emotional expression almost feels forced to me when I try to open up to someone.

Astrological perspective

Moon (emotions) in conjunction with Neptune=Pisces (confusion) in Aquarius (detachment from emotions).

Difficulty with open up – Moon aspect with Saturn=Capricorn (restriction on expression of emotions).

Lilith in Cancer – tips how to benefit

Did you notice there have been a lot of weird stupid fatal accidents lately? Since the middle of April this year Lilith is in Cancer – people are much more close to their unconscious fears and desires than usual. Feelings are deeper and harder to express in a way that’s not hurtful to yourself and others. 

Lilith stays in Cancer till the beginning of January 2023. Here are some ideas on how to benefit from the connection with the unconscious mind:

  • Don’t be hard on yourself;
  • Don’t let negative feelings accumulate – release anger (do some physical exercises/energetic movements), sadness (watch a romantic movie), self-pity (take time to have a good cry), and so on;
  • Think about the feelings you often have – what causes them; whether they are more related to people or situations, or both; whether they pass quickly; what you think is the real reason (and remember – do not reproach yourself, do not blame yourself for anything, now is not the time). 
  • The best way to reflect is to simply write down all thoughts and let them work their magic on paper, outside of your mind and body.
  • Spend more time with those who live in the moment and need to be cared for – children, pets, and the elderly. Nature is also a good way to reconnect with your true self, but only if you feel good about getting out into nature.

Reddit case: manic episode of bipolar disorder

Question: Coming to terms with a bipolar diagnosis I received in summer of 2020 after a second manic episode this year. Is there anything in my chart that indicates those hospitalizations or stability moving forward?

Astrological perspective.

Often the bipolar disorder is a manifestation of Aquarius energy with some Pisces influence.

It’s hard to tell something for sure without the rectified chart, but here are some thoughts:

  • natal Sun (in the 12th House – Pisces; aspects with Uranus and Neptune – another Aquarius/Pisces influence) and Moon (in Leo=influenced by Sun) have aspect with Lilith (can play out similar to Pisces) in Aquarius
  • in directions 6th House (hospital) conjunct Pluto, activating the whole Pluto-Sun-Neptune/Uranus natal configuration (natural point of Pluto-Sun opposition (fears and despair) is Neptune/Uranus conjunction (escaping reality)
  • in transits, Uranus has been making conjunction with Venus in the 12th House (Pisces) which is your Sun ruler.

Help people feel better – spread astrology knoweledge

Forbes published the “next billion dollar” start-ups list for 2022 which raised $3,4 billion in equity.

The list includes 25 startups and 66 founders with only 2 women names.

No wonder none of the start-ups helps people to feel better.

Support projects aimed to give people easy free tools to improve their outlook on life and themselves:

Reddit case: hard to find friends

Question: Why do I find it so difficult to form friendships/meaningful connections with people? For my entire life I’ve found it SO hard to make friends. Like much more difficult than other people, and as a result always hated new environments.

Astrological perspective.

Moon (the world that reflects what a person’s nature is) is influenced by Pisces (feeling lonely), Sagittarius (absence of meaningfulness), Uranus (fast change of “new friends”), and Scorpio (hate for the environment). If you find a way to fill your life with the above-mentioned vibes, there will be no need for them to manifest via hopeless friendship pursuit.

Reddit case: anxiety and depression

Question: Why do I tend to lean towards anxiety and depression? And how can I overcome it?

Astrological perspective:

Moon (emotions) in conjunction with Uranus (anxiety) and Neptune (depression) in Capricorn (one mood) the 8th House (Scorpio – deep despair).

Bring those energies when Moon is manifesting (home, food, sleep, relaxation) and they won’t need to play out in your mood.

Natal chart manifestation: Ezra Miller

“I barely identify as a human” – Ezra Miller’s quote.

Both Sun (self-identity) and Mercury (mind) are in Libra (sometimes plays out as ignoring your own interests to please other people/ideas) with Uranus-Neptune (aliens/surreal worlds) conjunction square.